I attended a great conference a few weeks back. It was a professional women's conference full of fresh faced and energetic millennials. For those of you who know me well, you would be correct in assuming that I sat back and thought "I could be her mother" repeatedly. I didn't feel too old though, I embraced my gray hair and 'maven' status. I am at the point in my life where I would not, for any amount of money, want to re-live my 20's or early 30's.
I have been deep in the throes of a mid-life crisis for the better part of 5 years. My biggest area of internal conflict has been figuring out what I should be doing with my life. I am 46 years old so it is quite reasonable for an outsider to assume that I have my s**t together and that I have a clear vision of what I want to do from here until my end of days.
Insert snorty laugh here.....
No. I don't have a clue.
It occurred to me a few days ago that instead of attempting to maintain a false sense of control over my life, perhaps I should just wing it. I plan on enjoying each days as it comes. I decided to find joy and happiness doing what I love (massage, energy work & card reading) and TRUST that the finances will take care of themselves. I am not, by nature, a frivolous creature and can be quite thrifty when needed~ so, my key words are faith and trust. To date, the Universe has not failed me. I have had more life lesson curve balls thrown at me than a major league catcher & I am pretty adept at dodging them. Now it is time to really LET GO and LET GOD. I am going to trying a few different things out on social media. It will be interesting to see what happens and where it all leads.
On that note, I have started a YouTube channel and will release video blogs, the links will pop up on this page. If you see a random red headed girl video bomb me, or if a certain canine wants a snuggle, you will just get a peek into my inside world...my magic place. Home.
I have always fancied myself a writer. My busy life takes most of my best laid plans (writing EVERY day) and pushes them off to the side as I deal with the day to day reality of running a business, keeping my relationship happy/healthy and trying to keep 3 teenaged girls from running amok.